Travis and God
PAC III, 2004-1
TRAVIS: (enters) Uh…hey Lord.
GOD: Hi Trav. Good to have you back at camp.
TRAVIS: Glad you’re still there.
GOD: I’m everywhere. Where could I go to get away from me?
TRAVIS: That’s funny.
GOD: I’ve been taking lessons from Matt and Scott.
TRAVIS: Yea. Hey Lord….I’ve got a question but I don’t know how to ask it.
GOD: So…how about just asking it?
TRAVIS: I’m afraid you might get mad.
GOD: Travis, as long as you’re honest, there’s nothing you can say to me that would ever make me stop loving you.
TRAVIS: I know that..but I mean…nobody else in my life is like that. It’s hard to get used to. You’re…you’re special, you know.
GOD: Glad you think so. So what’s bothering you?
TRAVIS: Darn…I don’t even know how to say this.
GOD: Give it a shot. If it comes out wrong we can edit the tape.
TRAVIS: (laughs a little, then) Well…here goes. I’ll just blurt it out, okay?
GOD: That’s my favorite kind of prayer.
TRAVIS: You see…all day I’ve been hearing songs about loving God and praising God and how good God is to me…
GOD: Yea. Cool stuff. Did you hear ________ sing?
TRAVIS: He/she got a lot of applause.
GOD: You should have heard the noise up here. It was deafening.
TRAVIS: But…sometimes….God, sometimes there’s not a song or a mime that says what I feel.
GOD: Like…..what?
TRAVIS: Okay. Here goes. Like when I’m mad. God, I’m really sorry for saying this but you wanted me to be honest. Sometimes I’m just…well, I’m mad at you. (a very long silence) I think I just screwed up. God? You still there?
GOD: I’m still here.
TRAVIS: I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that.
GOD: I….I didn’t answer because….because …. Trav, you know how it makes you feel when someone shares the deepest secrets of their heart with you?
TRAVIS: Yea. It makes me feel pretty special…like they must love and trust me a lot.
GOD: Yea. That’s it. That’s why I didn’t answer. That’s one of the most beautiful things anyone could pray to me, Travis… You trust me ..you love me enough to tell me you’re angry.
TRAVIS: (a relief) Wow. I thought I’d blown it.
GOD: Know what would have happened if you hadn’t said that?
TRAVIS: What?
GOD: You’d have stopped talking to me altogether…at least for a while. That’s what happens when people get angry…they quit talking…even to me. And that, Trav…that hurts me more than anything.
TRAVIS: Then…you mean..it’s okay to get angry with God?
GOD: Of course. Just don’t stop talking. It’s like stubbing your toe… you can’t help it when you feel that way. You’re not really angry, you’re just shouting Why in a very loud voice.
TRAVIS: You mean all those times when I…
GOD: When you stopped talking because you were mad?
TRAVIS: Yea. All those times, it would have been okay to…
GOD: Yea. In fact, I would have liked that very much. Keep talking to me, Travis. Never stop talking to me…no matter how you feel. (a long pause) You okay?
TRAVIS: Yea…Yea, I’m okay. In fact, I feel a lot better. It’s just gonna take a while for this to soak in. I’m kinda thick sometimes. I sure didn’t think I’d get an answer like that.
GOD: There’s more to me than you know, buddy.
TRAVIS: I guess that’s why you’re God…..
GOD: And that’s why you’re Travis.
TRAVIS: I think I like it better that way. I guess I’ll go now.
GOD: I’ll be there. (Travis starts to exit) And Travis….next time you get mad?
TRAVIS: Yea?
GOD: Tell me about it. We’ll talk.
TRAVIS: We’ll talk. (he exits) Travis & God II-2
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